Reflection

Out of all the stuff, I want to remember... pretty much everything about 2009. I really haven't been alive long, relatively speaking, so I enjoy being able to treasure it all. I've already lost most of my single-digits to memory, except for school memories.

I want to remember all the Band trips we went on, all the inside jokes, water gun fights, games of tag, NINJA!!, and good times that went along with it. Along with the fun, I want to remember (at least, not forget) all of the hard work and determination and yelling and fighting, blood, sweat and tears that came with it. We were the closest we've ever been to State Semi-Finals in almost a decade, and that doesn't go without reason. I want to always remember what counted when it comes down to it.

I doubt I'll ever be able to forget when I couldn't read for a solid... two months, I think? Somewhere around there, anyway. It was terrifying, really setting back, but it brought out the best in me, and even my family and friends. I want to remember that no matter what happens to me, I'll always have them behind me, ready to catch me, and cheering me on every last step of the way. That's something not a lot of people get to know like I do, or be able to sit back and cherish. I want to always remember that.

I want to remember, for now and for always, that after the day's over, all the books are put away, PS3's turned off, the world's asleep, that the only thing that really matters in this world is salvation to pass into the next. Growing up, whether it was my attitude, mentality, or just plain ignorance, I always saw a little bit more in the world than the rest of my family, and tended to indulge myself every now and then. But at the end of the day, it doesn't matter if I rank up fifteen levels in Call of Duty, or if I finally beat that last boss on God of War 2. What really, truly matters is my love for and faith in Jesus Christ, the Father and his will, and my relationships with the people I know. Those are all that will pass with me when I die, for all else is left behind. I won't be using it when I get where I'm going, so what's the sense in wasting my life mindlessly chasing such a fleeting whisp of satisfaction? God is eternal; his love is eternal. I want to always be reminded of that as I go on in life.

Not to get all serious, or anything, and I'm obviously leaving things out, but I know I'll keep them in my heart.